I’ll say I like the taste
Partially because I do
but also to deny that something’s wrong
I’ll pick up a glass
as a pick me up
begging me to pick it up
& sip
& I swear, I’ll put down the glass soon
but I know today will be rough
& so half a glass couldn’t hurt.
& babe, I swear,
I’ve been cutting back on it lately,
But I’ll have one bad day &
Have that headache kick in &
Have a glass in my hand by the time it does
once full,
now empty
& consider a second
but I know I’m already in too deep
in the on & off cycle
that keeps circling
like the condensation left by the cup
on my wooden tables
& just like that circled back
like always.
I just wanted that sweet something to sip
paired with that snack I always pair it with
& I’m not an addict,
I swear,
but maybe
I need to start buying decaf.